ignorance is your new bestfriend.

yknow, i talked to the one person that's the closest to you today. it's shocking to say that he's related to you, ha. he cares more about me that you ever did, and i didn't even date him like i dated you. he really doesn't wanna see me get hurt by you again. he even warned you. "don't screw this one up." and you did, you really fucking did. you have no care for it at all either, you do it all the fucking time anyway. you are really ignorant to everyone's feelings and emotions, aren't you? you need to just disappear off this planet. but i will not wish upon that, or i'll regret it in the future.

and then there's you. the one that's practically got my heart wrapped around your little finger. and you don't even know what to do with it. but somehow i keep telling myself, he won't drop it. he won't hurt it. he won't break it.
do i really even know?
and then there's the one that's slowly loosening from my grip. does it even bother you? do you even notice how you have that little knife slowly cutting me open, forcing it's way to my insides.
i told you, you would never be able to have this heart. it's just not for you yet.
but somehow i'm still convinced that if he did have it, he would never harm it.
what if he did? what if they both did?
what if i fucked myself over again, after multiple times.
my heart is unbreakable.
but it's getting more fragile by the day.
the more i talk to you, the more you ignore me.
the closer you get to me, the farther away you drift.
with every kiss you lay on me, with every heartfelt word you say to me.
i can't take it anymore. it's just too much for me to grasp.

i need to get away from this.